ahh, now a REAL blog

So once we get back to school on Friday from the fieldtrip...I don't plan on going to 7th period...wtfuck? who would? So I just go to my car and try calling up Tracy to meet up and chill or something...'cause I'm gna be by my fucking self on a mothafucking Friday 'cause Rusty has practice and... (whatever).

So Rusty leaves for practice..and I'm sitting in my fucking car waiting for Tracy's replies...and it's getting me nowhere. "We're not gna end up hanging out" I'm thinking. So I text her saying "Fuck it. Nvm, I'm just gna go home"...I decide maybe to wait for Rusty to get out of practice...so I sit....in my car...ALONE...waiting, for what seems to feel like HOURS. But I' m pretty sure, I was in that bitch for at least an hour waiting for a GAHDAMN miracle to happen. But it didn't. I remember eating my fucking feelings out with chocolate cake knowing that other people are "having the time of their life" right now, with no worries and not a care in the world about anything or anyone but themselves and the people they are with. Then my mouth gets all cakey and I'm thirsty. So I finally drive down to Westlake and grab myself some Jamba Juice. I check Miki's out for some sunglasses and I guess the ones I tried on last time weren't there anymore...or they just didn't look as good on me as they did last time. Then I go over to DSW hoping to find a good deal on shoes since I didn't get shit at Berkeley. I saw a couple cute things...but nothing special called out to me. After, I get some cheese fries at Slider's and eat them in the car ('cause I haven't had enough car time already...right). Later on, Rusty calls and says he's out of practice. I pick him up and head over to his place.

Yea....what a disappointment, right? Now that I think of it, I should've hanged out with Augie and fucking burned or something so I can forget what a crappy ass day I had, and a crappy ass day I had made of it. But then again...I think I need to be by myself more often...I know they say that "you can't do it alone"...well I've done it "not alone" for awhile now and it's about time, I learn.

I need to fucking graduate and LEAVE already.

On a happier note, my nieces and nephew are coming next week.